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The last one about create a life seems to be about my closeted life since I am married to a woman for almost 40yrs who I am slowly coming out to and she seems to be OK with it .I think she has known for a long time but kept it to herself,There were plenty of signs
ReplyDeleteJeff - Congratulations on evolving into your true self. I'm glad your wife is so understanding.
DeleteThank you its been quite a long confusing journey with depression anxiety and overthinking .She has asked me several times which I prefer cock or pussy.I asked her if she cared if I like cock too,her reply was no,as long as you come home to me..I didn't elaborate about how much I enjoy the intimacy with a man and the sexual satisfaction that I get from it.But thats for another day of the closet door opening a little further .I told her it doesn't change how I feel about her and I am the same person.I'm sure you can relate Rick you're a wee bit older than me being a teenager in the 70's this was such a taboo subject,But deep down I always knew this is who I really was.Having to swim naked in high school as a 14 yo in 9th grade was quite an eye opener about desires I struggled to suppress
DeleteJeff - Thank you for sharing some of your story. Taking baby steps seems the best way to go.
Delete#3) Yes, some people have given in to the depths of depression that they see no other way out. Some make it out of the rabbit hole, unfortunately others do not.
ReplyDeleteAnon@9:21am - I've spent way too much time peering into that rabbit hole; I'm much better now.
DeleteI think of that line in that song by Peggy Lee, Is That All There Is :
ReplyDelete“If that’s the way she feels about it, why doesn’t she just end it all ?
Oh, no not me, I’m not ready for that final disappointment.”
Depression hits hard.
In 1958/59, my great grandfather spent his final year bedridden and depressed. My grandmother, my father and his siblings took turns caring for a very independent man who did not like others helping him at all. They had concerns he might attempt suicide, my father finally asked him about that, and great grandpa told him “suicide is not an option, it hurts too many loved ones !”
-Rj
Rj - And that's the truth.
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